Amends Again

Author: wolf3177 <wolf3177[at]yahoo.com>

A X/F Fic.

Disclaimer: I do not own anything in this story. All people belong to Joss the creator of BtVS. I just like to dabble in his creation.


Chapter 1

Faith is walking down the dark streets of SunnyDale. She knows that eventual she will run in to Buffy but for tonight she just wants to fight the good fight and maybe save someone.

"This is so boring," mumbles Faith. She has been out of prison for a couple of months. She stayed in LA to get back in shape and to work things out withAngel and Co. She feels they would accept her back if the Scoobies do not work out for her. However, she knows that she must at least try even if the Scoobies do not want anything to do with her. Therefore, she continues her walk and she fights the good fight.

Then she sees her chance. There down the road a bit a she vamp looking like a hooker has just picked up some dark haired guy and leads him to a nearby ally.

"Why are there so many alleys in this city? I swear that for a small town like this there is enough dark alleys to rival Boston. I so hate this town." She thinks.

She sprints to the alley then starts a slow walk trying to figure out a battle plan in the tight space allowed. As she draws closer to the two in the alley, she hears talking. However, she knows one voice better then she would like to admit. It was a voice she has not heard in years and the last time she talked to him she insulted him while she was in Buffy's body.

"What is he doing? Is he trying to get himself killed? Man, this is not going to go well. At least I will be able to show him I want to make amends for my past." She says all this so quietly she barely noticed she said them at all.

"I know you a vampire. I have been killing your kind for years now. I also know that you think you can just pick some random guy off the street drain dry him and leave. Well tonight you will not get any blood from me." Xander says as he pulls out a cross to stop the vamp's approach to him.

The vamp stops her approach and looks at him. "You run with the Slayer," she hisses as she shifts in to game face. "You will not kill me tonight and you will not live long enough to tell the Slayer where I kill."

Xander looks at her with eyes that hold great pain and sadness. "I am not here to kill I just don't want to be sucked dry. I just want a quick and painless death to end my life."

Faith creeps slowly towards the vamp. She is about to jump and end it when she hears Xander's painless death statement. She stops for a brief moment and watches as Xander lowers the cross and turns his back on the vamp. The vamp looks at him and smiles. She takes a step towards him hoping to at least get a kill for the night.

"Do you want me to drop you body anywhere after this? I am sure the Slayer will suffer greatly to see your broken body on her doorstep." The vamp enquires.

"What ever sister just kill me so I at least don't have to listen to you talk," Xander replies with a voice of both annoyance and pain.

"Well see you later." She remarks as she grabs his head to twist it.

He feels her grab his chin and the top of his head. In one quick movement, he will be dead and all the pain will end. He even might make it to heaven. He is unsure but he knows hell could be no worse then living. He feels his head begin to turn but then stops as he breathe in the ash of his assassin.

"What the hell do you think you are doing boytoy?" Came a voice that was both sweet and angry at the same time. Xander turns to see a set a beautiful eyes that the last time he looked into where filled with pain and she was trying to kill him.

"So Faith you came all this way to stop that so you could do it? I will admit right now I do not care, kill me if you want in fact do it because I want you to end it. I am sick of this life and I want off. So here you go Faith kill me and know that you can getaway with out having to answer for my death. Buffy would think it is a vampire and maybe she might go back in to killing them then just sleeping with them. Hell maybe Ahn might find the peace she needs so doesn't have to stay in the Vampire Layer group either." All this came in quick angry and rage. The pain of seeing his ex with Spike and knowing the Buffy has also gone that route. The knowledge that Spike got two very important people in his life to have sex with him hurt. The pain of Buffy not allowing him to kill Spike also hurt. She still would stay with him then come back to her friends.

Standing there stunned was all Faith could do. She stands there looking at this man that held such pain. She saw him fight by Buffy's side, helped her escape from the she demon, heard of him stopping Angelus from killing Buffy, and even brought Buffy back to life. Right now at this moment, she sees him as a defeated man. Some much has gone by since she left. Buffy died, came back, Spike has slept with both Buffy and Anya. Then it happened the barrier that was holding all that pain broke and Xander fell to his knees and cried. She stood there looking at him and trying to understand what to do. She was a slayer. Not a friend, not a parent, and not a healer. What can she do but watch? Then from some where in her mind almost a subconscious though. Hold him, just hold him, and let him cry. Before she could even think about where in came from of weather to do it she was on her knees holding him and trying to convey some form of comfort.

So there, they stayed for what seemed like hours. Just holding each other. Some time during the hug, she realized that he was also holding her. Then it hit her how much she must have hurt him from sleeping with him then throwing him out, then trying to kill him and his friends. She also started to cry. Shortly after Xander had calmed down and noticed that Faith was also crying. It hurt him to see her cry soas he rubbed away some tears he started to stand up. They never broke the hold they had as they stood up and walked off.

Xander just walked back to where he was at home right now, his hotel room. Faith just walked with him offering her support and following his lead. As they walked into the lobby Xander started to talk.

"Faith I only have one bed in my room. I can try and get a twin room if you don't have a place to go." Xander said looking at her and trying to hold it together.

"Thanks but no. I have a place to go to," she lied to him. She did not want to leave his side yet and wanted to talk with him longer. "Can I stay with you longer though? I would still like to talk to you more."

"Sure Faith you can stay for awhile."

"Thank you very much."

They started back to his room after he went up to the counter and got a pillow and some more towels. They walk back was quiet and they were no longer arm in arm but were holding hands. Faith was happy that Xander was going to let her stay for a bit but mad at herself for lieing about having a place to go. She just wanted to stay with him tonight. No sex just a place to stay and be there and have him there for her. She needed him for that and she could hopefully be there for him.

They sat in his room he was on the bed and she was in a chair. They just sat there staring from each other to the room and back to each other. Xander finally breaks the silence and tells her all he could about the last two years. He started with the fight with Adam and ended with him leaving Anya at the alter. Everything he know he told her weather she needed to know or should know he didn't care he just wanted to talk about it all. After that he even went over the past 18 years of his life. He told her all about High school with Buffy, Willow, Jesse, Cordy, Angel, and Giles. In the spand of 3 hours he told her more of his life and thoughts then Buffy and Anya both. Willow was did not even have this much knowledge of his little moments, feelings, and homelife. Faith sat there in awe. What could she say? She had his life story handed to her. Something that Buffy was never given and Anya did not have. How do you just react when you know this about someone? Last time you and him were alone like this you were strangling him.

As he finished up, she sat there and then offered him something she has never offered before. She told him of her life, from growing up with abusive parents, the death of her mother, becoming the slayer, the death of a watcher, and her fall in to darkness. He sat and listened and remembered ever detail.

It was really late in to the night when they finished talking. Neither knew just what to say so Xander did the only thing he could.

"So you up for another round?" he joked but couldn't even make the smile of the joke last.

"Sorry boytoy but I am not going for that now. I am actually going to make something of myself and maybe just maybe find a guy I can love that loves me back." Faith admited to him.

"You don't have a place tonight do you?" he more stated then asked. "You can stay here I will take the floor you take the bed"

"Xander this is your room you take the bed I can take the floor."

"Sorry this gentlemen must offer the lady the bed. That is how it is going to be."

"Well I am no lady -"

"Don't you dare finish it. You are a wonderful women and your are a lady for not sleeping around and trying to do what is right. You say it again and I will have to hurt you. And I don't like to hurt people I lo-" He stopped very sudden. "Friends I don't like to hurt my friends."

She was shocked could he still have feelings for her, was it possible that she could still be a friend and maybe that he could still love her. She was not going to get her hopes up for right now he was in not place to start a relationship with anyone. She was not much better off.

"Fine you take floor I will take the bed," She replies to him. "Thank you for the offer and thanks for giving me a chance to make things right."

Xander looked at Faith and some hope in her eyes. He could not remember if there was anything more beautiful then her eyes at that moment. He took a blanket off the bed and the extra pillow and setup a place to sleep. He gave Faith the towel and pointed the way to the shower.

Faith took off to the shower and he took off to bed. He then went in to his clothes and pulled out a long nightshirt which he set out on the bed. He stripped down to his boxers and proceeded to the floor. He fell asleep seconds after his head meet the pillow. 10 minutes later the shower stopped and Faith came out wrapped in a towel and head to the bed. She saw the nightshirt when she turned on the light. She smiled at Xander on the floor and removed the towel and then dressed for bed. She turned off the light and nestled in to the sheets and fell asleep.

Xander's sleep was a good and restful sleep. Faith's was one of past demons haunting her. From trying to kill Xander, shooting a poison arrow at Angel, and the final fight with Buffy the put her in a coma. She woke screaming then stopped as she got her bearings. Next thing she knew there were strong arms around her holding her. She could feel his heart beat and it was raging. Like he was ready to fight off whatever evil came into his room and attacked her. Then she noticed that she was rocking slightly and that Xander was just trying to sooth her not there was not sign of an attack just a restless sleep. She finally wrapped her arms around him as tight as she could so he would not leave.

"Breathing I want to breath again," he squeaked out.

"Sorry Xan," She said as she lossened her hold but would still not let him go. "Stay here please. I need to you around me."

The fear in her voice was not heavy but he could hear it. "Okay but I am not making a habit of this," he said with half smile. "Unless you want me to" was the only thought in his head. He did not know where it came from and wan't sure if he know where anything with her could lead. Right now, he offered the comfort she gave him when he broke down. He also knew that he would help to fix her again. He is the heart of the group and offer comfort is what he does.

So there they slept in one bed in each others arms wardering off bad dreams and evil demons.