Sour Girl

A Buffy the Vampire Slayer Fanfiction Story

Author: Jason W Thompson <jwt6577[at]quik.com>

May 1, 2000

Disclaimer: Once upon a time there was a guy he wrote a story with characters and settings he didn't own, but he put a disclaimer on his story and that made it a little less illegal. BTVS and Angel are owned by Joss, Fox, Mutant Enemy, and the WB. I don't own anything except the situation characters are in.

Category: Xander/Tara

Spoilers: Minor for season 4

Warnings:

Summary: Xander thinks about a certain blonde witch.

Rating:

Distribution: You want MY story? How nice of you, please help yourself, but if it ends up on a site somewhere, drop me a line so I can show all my friends.

Notes: I'm pretty sure this has the distinction of being the first ever Tara/Xander story, if I'm mistaken, let me know.

Dedication: As always, dedicated to Princess, and since it's my birthday, dedicated to me.


>> She turned away, what was she looking at?
She was a sour girl the day that she met me
Hey, what are you looking at?
She was a happy girl the day that she left me<<

We all have our dirty little secrets, mine just so happened to be dating my best friend at the moment. Tara, I can't believe Tara is Willow's girlfriend. I watch as Willow holds her hand and whispers little things in her ear, and for everything that's holy, I hate Willow for it. She was looking at me, she smiled slightly, blushed and turned back to Willow.

>> She turned away, what was she looking at?
She was a sour girl the day that she met me
Hey, what are you looking at?
She was a happy girl the day that she left me<<

I won't romanticize things, I was her rebound guy, and she was my summer fling. But I thought of her constantly when I first came back to Sunnydale. I never thought she'd show up here going to school, and I REALLY never thought she'd show up as Willow's girlfriend. I knew before anybody else, that Tara liked her. I saw that look in her eyes directed at me after all.

>> What would you do?
What would you do if I follow you?
What would you do? I follow<<

I see her smiling at Willow. They're happy together and it kills me every once in a while. I mean I very nearly fell for her this summer, and she had at least some feelings for me, after all, when she said good-bye, she said she'd think of me. Is she thinking of me now?

>>Don't turn away, what are you looking at?
He was so happy on the day that he met her
Say, what are you looking at?
I was a superman, the looks are deceiving<<

I look over at him and his girlfriend and I can't help but remember those summer nights, we'd go to the park, sit on my porch, see movies, and spent many nights hold up in his hotel room. I remember his touch and can't stop the blush that creeps up my neck. He sees me and I smile slightly before I turn away.

>>The roller coaster ride's a lonely one
I pay the ransom note to stop it from steaming
Hey, what are you looking at?
She was a teenage girl when she met me<<

I still have his Sunnydale High T-shirt. The one he gave me after we got caught in the rain. We ran back to the motel, where we made love for the first time. It was my first time with a boy, and he had only had sex one other time. His touch was so gentle, nothing like my girlfriend before him, Jenn wasn't very gentle. Maybe that's why when we broke up, I went for Xander.

I can't think of him this way, but maybe someday.

>>What would you do?
What would you do if I follow you?
What would you do? I follow
What would you do?....<<

I watched the brief exchange of looks, another in a long line of looks between Tara and Xander. Something happened between them, perhaps before she met Willow. I will have to ask him about it, I will hold him after the others leave and try to obtain some information. I don't want to see these young people I've come to think of as my children hurting, and I can see in Xander's eyes that he is hurting terribly.

>>The girl got reasons
They all got reasons
What would you do?....
Hey, what are you looking at?
She was a happy girl the day that she left me
The day that she left me / The day that she left me
She was a happy girl the day that she left me
The day that she left me / The day that she left me
She was a happy girl the day that she left me.<<

I can see her looking at Willow. It hurts but I want both of them to be happy. Maybe someday, Tara and I will have another chance, but for today. I stand aside, and hope she finds happiness.

Giles tells me to hang back as everyone else is leaving. I watch Tara leave and do my best to keep a neutral face as she leaves. I heard a song by STP on the way over, it's fitting. Especially the last line. "She was a happy girl the day that she left me."

The End